Once In A Year

Ok, so...........there I was on a blustery Saturday night, relaxed alone in the cozy comfort of my home. Given a chance, I 've always opted for quiet birthday nights and this year was no exception. A surprise dinner celebration thrown in my honour the night before had more than sufficed. I have a lot of thoughts growing and moving inside my head tonight and will continue to finish a few pieces of future life-plans that seem to distance themselves yet-again from fruition. My own quiet vigil on this weekend night where even quiet spirits yearned to dance in celebration. I am in a good place emotionally and spiritually. Blessed. Truly.

I have been generating half-baked pieces of thoughts and for some reason I just couldn't get to the finish line with them. This piece began one day when I was feeling a little lonely. It created a source to dig deeper into that dark pit of loneliness, which I don't think I have truly felt myself, but have been privy to others sharing it with me.

The question I pondered........... how can I humanize the feeling? How can I capture its essence in a descriptive picture that others could relate to? After a great deal of thought about how to describe the real dark side of "lonely," the vision of an abandoned heart in a field covered in mist kept surfacing. A little beating heart lost in a fallow field. Once tended. Now, left.

Somewhere along the line, I was struck by the realization that the feeling of loneliness is the devil's best friend. We tend to succumb to our growling needs when we feel the most alone. Humans need love and belonging and if it isn't attained? We satisfy it by any means, despite our values. Despite our better judgement. Loneliness makes humans ripe for temptations.
 
Anyways, it wasn't loneliness to the bitter extreme, because technology made it impossible. The quietness of the cocoon to which was my home, was intermittently disrupted by the pings from my blackberry (thank you sms and facebook) with best wishes for my wellbeing from loved-ones. Temptation, I surrendered.
 


p/s ~ thank you all for the thoughtful and most kind wishes. Appreciated.







"Walk on a trail of loving kindness
Walk on a path of compassion
And all else around you will be beautiful."
Every Blessing